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Duke University student Belle Knox, who shot to fame after it was disclosed that she is making porn films to pay her steep tuition fees, says she’s aroused by pain.
And there’s no greater proof of the self-inflicted kind than in MailOnline’s shocking exclusive photographs of Belle, whose real name is Miriam Weeks.
The modeling photos, taken shortly before she began her porn career, clearly show ugly cutting marks on the porn star’s thighs.
Most worrisome is the word ‘FAT’, carved into her skin of her left thigh.
Rough cut: Belle insists that she hasn’t cut herself in five years. Her scars may fade but will never go away.
Skin deep: The telltale marks on Belle’s left thigh are typical of a cutter’s scarring. What isn’t typical is the word FAT, spelled out on the right side of her thigh.
‘Oh yeah, she is a major league cutter,’ said one blogger in a recent post. ‘From the thighs down to the toes. Apparently her ex-boyfriend that cheated on her told her she was fat so she carved the word into her thigh.
Other viewers of her videos have remarked about the scars, commenting that the cutting ‘should be more of a concern than having sex on camera.’
‘I’m a slut that needs to be punished,’ Belle told XOJane.com.
And she acknowledges being a cutter too. “Like man young women grappling with depression, I used to take it out on myself,’ she says. She insists she’s been clean from self-harm for five years.
Duke student-turned-porn-star Belle Knox has defended her choice to make adult films. She says that she began watched porn when she was 12 years old. Belle, whose real name is Miriam Weeks, also confessed to cutting herself. ‘I’m a slut who needs to be punished,’ she said.
Weeks says she’s proud to show her scars and has moved on.
But Dr Gregory Smith, a leading expert on addiction and pain and the producer of the award-winning documentary, American Addict, tells MailOnline: “While these are old scars, I should warn the girl that this addiction can rear its ugly head whenever she faces emotional upheaval or trauma.
‘There haven’t been studies about the genetic component of cutting but I suspect that if one is predisposed to self-mutilation, the urge to cut will always lie below the surface.
‘These are definitely marks of a cutter who used a knife or razor blade to mutilate herself,’ Smith says of the modeling pictures.’The upper thighs are a prime spot for cutting because they are usually covered up.
‘People who cut say they derive pleasure from the pain because it allows them to ‘feel’ again. Often these are young women who are emotionally traumatized or numb.
‘There are many reasons why girls cut, and the fact that she comes from a Catholic background and is doing porn suggests that she may be cutting as a form of self punishment.
‘Very often women who do porn have to psychologically disassociate themselves from their actions or from the person they are having sex with. They turn the switch off so that they feeling nothing but emptiness. Cutting gives them back that feeling that they are still alive, they can still feel pain—and for them, it is sheer pleasure.’
‘Pain arouses me,” Belle says.
She admits disturbing details of her childhood and teen years – although she’s still a teen – revealing that she cut herself and asked friends to lock her in a dog cage.
Teenybopper: Belle aka Miriam looks like just any teenager when she was spotted in midtown Manhattan recently.
‘I was not fully aware of it but it physically and mentally aroused me. I didn’t know why but I liked it.
Belle describes her first experience making a porn video that featured a violent scene during which she performed oral sex on her male co-star.
She said the scene was feminist because he gets off on ‘painful,’ nasty’, name-calling-filled sex.
The 18-year-old who has caused nationwide uproar and family heartache was raised a devout Roman Catholic in a loving home in Spokane, Washington.
Miriam’s father Kevin and mother Harcharan, reportedly have been ‘floored’ by their daughter’s decision to turn to porn to fund her $60,000-a-year education at the elite university.
Weeks said today that her parents were not aware of her decision to enter the porn industry but are now ‘absolutely supportive’ of her choice.
Poser: Belle enjoyed mugging for the camera during her first photo shoot, just before she began her porn career in earnest.
Laughing all the way to the bank: Thanks to her side job, ‘Belle Knox’ doesn’t have to worry about overwhelming college debt.
And her family life seems to be as troublesome as her romantic life. Although Belle continues to deny that there is a rift in her family, MailOnline learned that she recently cancelled a showdown with her parents because she’s too busy filming X-rated movies.
Since the 18-year-old’s story broke, Belle has been inundated with requests from media outlets, websites and porn producers.
Her story caught the attention of the world when it was revealed that she couldn’t afford her $60,000 a year university tuition so turned to porn to pay her way. without her parents knowing.
MailOnline revealed last week that army doctor Kevin Weeks and his wife Harcharan were horrified to learn about their new daughter’s career – just weeks after he had returned home from a deployment to Afghanistan.
But far from feeling embarrassed about her new profession, Belle insisted she has reveled in her newfound fame. Only 24 hours after it was announced, she was a guest on the CNN’s Piers Morgan Live and she recently appeared on The View. She’s received many other offers.
Chatty: Belle sat down with The View hosts to talk about her porn career. She’s much in demand not only by talk shows but also porn producers. But as a cover girl? No takers yet.
According to sources, she’s taken on a new publicist, and her manager, John Steven, who owns the porn agency Matrix Models, hasn’t turned down many paying gigs.
When we spoke to Steven, he confirmed that Belle was working around the clock doing porn movies and video shoots. In the space of a long weekend, she had done shoots in Los Angeles, Phoenix and New York.
Another source confirmed to MailOnline that the new porn pin-up was supposed to be visiting her mother and father in Spokane, Washington on a recent Sunday .
But she cancelled the visit. When we spoke to Steven the following Monday morning, she was in his car, eating a bagel, on her way to an early morning porn shoot.
It appears that the porn princess snubbed her parents in favour of staying in Los Angeles and pocketing upwards of $1,200 each for blue movie shoots.
Coy: Belle went from flirty to flaunting it in her first photo shoot.
Her youthful good looks and glowing skin are undeniable.
Cheeky! She gave a glance over her shoulder back at the cameras like a professional model.
Her Twitter following has exploded. After MailOnline published her story, Belle added 10,000 followers within 12 hours. It’s now growing by 2,000 a day. She’s also opened up Facebook and Tumblr accounts.
But, as glamorous as it all sounds, the reality is much different and the evidence of cutting becomes less of a surprise.
Belle shares a small apartment with other porn actresses with Matrix Models on a scruffy block on a noisy main road in Mar Vista, Los Angeles. The place is listed under the name of John Steven in the block’s directory.
Fellow residents and owners of the quaint bungalows surrounding the block may be completely unaware of what is going on inside one of the suites.
Belle can work up to 12 hours a day, and is whisked around the city to studios and houses in LA – or ferried to the airport for out-of-town jobs.
Within the apartment complex, porn models, including Belle’s friend and on-screen lesbian lover Natasha White, come and go all day along with photographers and cameramen.
Scruffy: Far from a life of glamour, Belle has been staying with other porn actresses in a small apartment in LA. She’s using her cash to pay for her $60,00-a-year Duke tuition.
Kinky: Belle says she gets pleasure from ‘painful,’ ‘nasty’, ‘name-calling filled’ sex.
The complex is just behind what’s believed to be owner Steven’s business and residential address. Although the agent claims on his website that he’s located at an exclusive Beverly Hills address, it is, in fact, a mailbox and his company employs just one person, himself.
His days are mostly spent booking Belle and friends on endless shoots and taxiing them around.
According to our source, everyone connected to Belle is eager to make the most of her newfound fame. They’ve hired a publicist and done a couple of shoots with a downmarket US tabloid newspaper.
Her story has also been touted to book publishers, with a demand of $1million for the rights to her remarkable story.